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 I got a MacBook!!!!!! Yay!!!!
On another note...
I think I've figured out why it's so hard for me to make friends or even talk to people that I like: I don't know the script. See, I can get up in front of a room full of people and make a speech, no problem; I can call the electric company, talk to the lady at the checkout stand in the grocery store; hell, I could even do the dating thing because I knew how it was supposed to go. I know more or less what the other person expects of me, what I expect of them, and roughly what things are appropriate to say. But can I call a friend because I really want to talk to her and I need an ear to whine to? Not even with a pint of liquid courage poured down my throat. And forget about going up to people and attempting to engage them in potentially friend-making conversations - not gonna happen.
Speaking of liquid courage, back before I was pregnant, I felt like I had at least a decent amount of friends. Where'd they all go? Did they abandon me? Nope. I think I had been relying too heavily on alcohol as a social lubricant. Once I could no longer touch the stuff, I found that I had no idea how to talk to anyone. It was just me and my socially retarded ways.
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I think I'm gonna go out on limb and post this on myspace. It's a bit more personal than I usually get, but maybe that's a good thing in this instance.

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herince_emyn
Dec. 28th, 2008 01:41 am (UTC)
I used to be soooooooo shy when I was in high school. I barely talked to anyone I knew, let alone new people in social situations. Eventually I opened up a lot and became much more outgoing, so now it's no big deal to me. But I definitely remember how daunting it is trying to make new friends.

I'm still new to the area and trying meet new people. I'm up for a cup of coffee sometime if you are! :)
carms_arms
Dec. 28th, 2008 05:03 pm (UTC)
I have quite a lot of friends, and let me tell you - they really get on my nerves. Always so much small talk, always people butting their noses in places it doesn't belong, always asking for favours, not often returning any favours... They are quite draining.
Friends aren't all they are cracked up to be.
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